Maybe you’ve gathered, from some of my earlier posts and from the very subject of my blog, that I’ve dealt with some real messy business in the past. The song, Like I Wish I’d Lived, was written by Rodney Griffin for me. I don’t mean for me because he wanted the one who sings the high part to sing it. I mean FOR ME. It’s my testimony… My prayer. Some of you may be thinking… Hmmmmmm, I wonder what Chris is guilty of. Well, let me just go ahead and lay that one to rest… That one’s between me, my Lord and those who were affected. The bottom line is this, I can sincerely relate with those of you who are having a tough time moving ahead. It’s easy for those who haven’t carried 1,000 tons of guilt and regret on their shoulders to quote the Bible to us and say, “Hey man, just let Jesus carry that for You… He’s more than able”, and that is true…BUT, those ghosts of guilt continue to haunt! Moving forward is a day to day process.
I’ll never forget that summer evening, in the very midst of my dreary funk, I grew unbelievably desperate for help. I had pitifully cried out to God and I know He heard me because, all in an instant, I was impressed to pick up my lap top and go straight to Google. Or, might I say… “Godgle”. Yep, God works in mysterious ways, doesn’t He?! I was looking for anyone who had stood in my shoes that might have some word of encouragement for me. Just anybody! Just something! Anything! I needed relief!!! Ever been there?
Well, that Heaven inspired search lead me to an ebook written by someone who experienced exactly what I was experiencing. I was just $12.00, from my PayPal to theirs, away from reading one line that would change my whole outlook on this thing that was holding me hostage… My history.
You see, because of my failure, it was my history that had defined me. In the eyes of so many, that’s who I was. How was I ever going to shake this overgrown gorilla off of my back?!
I watched with impatient anticipation as the little thingy that spins on your computer telling you that you’re just going to have to wait until it’s good and ready to stop spinning before you can do one more thing, spun and spun and spun and spun…….. You get the picture. Finally the download was complete and I clicked with the hopes God would give me something to help me sleep.
So, do you remember what we’re dealing with here? Our history? Is yours getting the best of you? Do you look in the rear view mirror of your life and grimace as you think about what’s behind you? I understand how you feel. I hope the truth I’m fixing to share with you helps you like it helped me that night.
Here it is… simple but truly life changing.
“You have the ability to create a brand new history”
Think about it… Every single day that you live in the light takes you one day further away from that darkness that is whooping your tail! Before you know it, you’re gonna have a brand new track record to reflect upon. And whether you believe it or not, those who have formed opinions of you based on the thing or things you’ve done will notice the new road you’ve paved with godly living!
Keep your head up and your shoulders squared back… The past doesn’t have to dictate your future. Just make it your prayer and resolve to walk closer to Christ with every day that comes along. Before you know it, you’ll only see pleasant memories in that rear view mirror!
Another word of encouragement… I REALLY HOPE that this post has helped those of you who struggle with your past to see there’s hope in creating a new history day by day. But, if it really didn’t do it for you… Look on the bright side, it didn’t cost you $12.00!
Now, go ahead and share your thoughts with us!!! I want to hear from you.